awkward

Been doing so much packing.
My hands are so dry, the slightest
scuff makes them split open.

I'm also so very tired.
So much movement in such a short
amount of time, I'm not stressed
though. I don't think I'm
capable of being stressed.

Maybe that's the main reason
most think I'm apathetic.
But, whatever!
I care damnit!

Just to clear the air about my
reaction to my SG model
rejection.. since I'm still coming
across curiously hungery minds.

Yes, it did suck. It dampened
my ego a little, and yes, I still
look at the new limbo girls..
and think "What the fuck."

But, I have free membership
til July.. so, I'll stick around
til then. Maybe along the way
I'll try to become SG again.
But, for now, the excitement
and sparkle of being a SG
has very much.. gone away.

I enjoy just being apart of the site
and meeting fabulously new people.

And, romping around in my SG-halter
top.. and soon new SG panties..
because I just couldn't resist.

but, more importantly..

How does a agnostic person celebrate
this season? By spending oodles
of money.. having steamy sex
in dimly lighted bedrooms, and
gorging upon the sweet goodness
bakingness... oh yes, and of course..
making sure to smile..

mm.. Happy holidays folks.

I'll see you all again in California.

Leave me some love,
I need something to come back to.