awkward

How it irks me when my phone
rings before noon. Not to make myself
sound like a lazy slump, that doesn't
wake up before noon.

But, I don't wake up before noon.

I'm lucky to fall asleep before
2 in the morning, so, my
sleeping time is.. the rest of
the morning. -hmph-

And, then I get annoyed messages
from the vile morning caller, demanding
to know why I didn't answer the
phone.. -glare-

Phones are such a disruption
to my privacy. I think that's
what makes me less inclined to
call people, a ringing phone
is intrusive.

Maybe some take it as,
:oh, how nice, you were thinking
about me.. aww...: I will admit
that sometimes that is the case,
or I'm feeling silly and would
like to add a little chaos to
someone's day..

But, for the most part..
I dislike phones.

As much as I dislike..
having to hit the decline
button when people request
to be my friend here in SG.

Uh.. but then.. it's mostly
people that.. haven't even
tried to talk to me..

Talk to me.. I'm nice..
I only bite if you ask.

But, it's super spiffy!
My sister and her husband are
leaving for a week in december..
OOo.. joyous deviant behavior!

A whole week of absolute
freedom.. to prance around in
my underwear.. and make
obscene drawings in the misted
window of my room!

There are only a few times that
I wish I had playmates..
not so much to 'play' with persay..
but, just people to be around..
and do silly things with..

I've never had many friends..
I can actually say I've
never had real friends at all..
at least not the type that
you go and do silly things with..

I keep telling myself that I have
friends now.. but that still
feels strange..

-blink,blink-
My phone is ringing.

oh oh oh..
one more thing..

damn there are a lot of
questions in the profile
section.. -grumble, grumble-

complaining.. it's good
for you..

so is change.. mmm.. change.