awkward

I am hardly ever proud of the
things that I have done..

reguardless of what I chose
to create.. there is always
something that shys itself
below my standards..

I took some pictures today..
decided to plug in some
lights.. use my bass as
a prop.. rather then actually
playing it..

The fifth picture elevates
my spirits..

Pictures is all I did today..
Seattle was a no go.

Though, I'm not too disappointed.

I can't keep a certain person
from my mind.. it makes me
smile to let myself drift into
thought.. though seeing them
would just sooth my mind..
so much thinking..
so much wanting..

It's enough to make me go
mad.. but yes, self control..
and distractions can be a
lovely thing..

-sigh-
my foot seems to have fallen
asleep.. and it hurts.