awen

So this person I am infactuated/ in love with (I dunno which it is) tried to kill himself Sat... this only complicates things. It made me angry, and it also made me sad. I dunno if I should be mad and move on, or not let him outta my site or arms for fear of loosing him. I guess really its his choice and the next couple weeks will tell... I went down that night, and stayed with him so he couldnt go thru with it, we talked about so much, but now we say nothing....I know he's likely tired of people bringing it up, but I was there, and I want to know if the things he said were true, or 'meaningless' drunk talk .. but 'meaningless' drunk talk isnt meaningless is it? the booze just brings it out frum deep inside doesnt it?? Bah! Just when I thought I couldnt get more depressed. Stupid heart and stupid feelings.. where's the off button