awen

I wanted to tell you everything that's on my mind, beacuse I want to able to. I wanted to be that close to you. And maybe I thought you could help me sort it out, really that's not your job and now Ive pushed you farther away. Which may be the right thing in the end anyway. Or maybe its entirely the wrong thing.. Maybe lifes about taking the chance. I was hoping to make an educated decision following logic and reason rather than listening to the thump thump in my chest. Maybe in attempt to avoid the possiblitly of things turning sour down road, and lessen the pain.....but even now I dont remember hurting this much in so long. Stupid heart and stupid breaking. Id rather it be ripped frum my chest and thrown into the sea where I'd never find it again