awaytothemoon

So I did mission work in tennessee during the summer of 2005. today I spent an hour and a half on the phone with a friend of mine who I met down there. Shes only 3 months older than me and she's telling me how she's engaged and getting married in sept. of 2008. Granted, that's a long way off, but she already has the hall booked, the dress bought, the invitations picked out, and all kinds of other stuff. She was whining about not being able to find a cake she liked. She has a year and a half! Its just insane. I live with 2 engaged kids. I have 3 other friends from tennessee planning weddings, two of them are marrying eachother!
I want that. I want a serious relationship. I have an ex-finace, from 2 years ago, and I'm not going to lie, I miss him sometimes. However, I (maybe we) weren't mature enough to make it work then. He is in the army and I was living at school. Plus when he was home, he was stationed in North Carolina and I was going to Eastern Michigan University and living in a dorm. We saw eachother for a least one weekend a month (when he wasn't deployed) and I really wish things could've worked, but we just really couldn't make it. He's married now, with 2 kids, one of which is genetically his, one isn't. I really don't think she's the right girl for him to have married... they were engaged before and she cheated on him... that's how the other kid came to be. But if he's happy, I guess that's all that matters.
I just miss having that. I miss having someone who I can tell everything to. Someone who will come over and I can just wear jeans and a hoodie with no makeup and my hair in a ponytail. Someone who I don't feel goofy eating in front of. Someone who will watch chick flicks with me and actually enjoy them (he did, he proposed while we were watching 2 weeks notice). Someone who I can just fall asleep with. Someone who will talk to me for hours on the phone and text me telling me they love me right after we hang out. I just want everything I had before. But this time, I want it to work.