So winter is here. I will really feel it when I get back to Jersey but for now I have started feeling the inward pull of my existential nature. This happens to me ever year so here is the official warning. This blog will get weird from time to time and I want to make a blanket statement now. I do not mean to offend or put off anyone. If you don't like the direction that the whole thing is going then click on the trailer and go about your day. I get some pretty weird shit in my head now and again and this is the first year I will really have someplace to put it all at 3am.
I was actually talking with avidity tonight about many a thing. From her blog to politics to religion and came to realize that I don't have enough conversations anymore. I miss the deep crazy thought sessions of my early twenties. I miss debating the values of organized religion or lack there of.
I am in the place where I want to raise the level of conversation. I want people to reclaim language in a positive way. I think that we throw away words. We don't say what we mean and never seem to take the time to think about the things that really matter in the long run.
Just for backgrounds sake here is a small part of my history. I was once a very angry person. It took basically nothing for set me off. Then in 2002 I was in a car accident and my best friend of 5 years died. I was out of work for 2 months and had nothing to do except read and watch TV and think about my life. Was I really happy with the way I had lived? Had I done anything that I could tell my potential children I was proud of. I realized that there were some things but I had up till then spent the majority of my life complaining and being stressed about things that won't matter in 5 years or even 5 months. I became much calmer. I try to only really get upset about the big stuff. I like rolling with the punches. I like the person I am and I have had time to experience my life.
So back to my conversation thing. I decided that I want that again. I want to talk to people that have opinions and aren't afraid to say so. The best think about opinions is they can't be wrong but sometimes just sometimes they can spark an idea in another and that idea could spark a discussion and if enough people talk about what matters than that my friends is a revolution. I think revolution large scale or small is good for the soul.
That is all for now but this madness will probably continue all through winter. So in the mean time this trailers for you!
I was actually talking with avidity tonight about many a thing. From her blog to politics to religion and came to realize that I don't have enough conversations anymore. I miss the deep crazy thought sessions of my early twenties. I miss debating the values of organized religion or lack there of.
I am in the place where I want to raise the level of conversation. I want people to reclaim language in a positive way. I think that we throw away words. We don't say what we mean and never seem to take the time to think about the things that really matter in the long run.
Just for backgrounds sake here is a small part of my history. I was once a very angry person. It took basically nothing for set me off. Then in 2002 I was in a car accident and my best friend of 5 years died. I was out of work for 2 months and had nothing to do except read and watch TV and think about my life. Was I really happy with the way I had lived? Had I done anything that I could tell my potential children I was proud of. I realized that there were some things but I had up till then spent the majority of my life complaining and being stressed about things that won't matter in 5 years or even 5 months. I became much calmer. I try to only really get upset about the big stuff. I like rolling with the punches. I like the person I am and I have had time to experience my life.
So back to my conversation thing. I decided that I want that again. I want to talk to people that have opinions and aren't afraid to say so. The best think about opinions is they can't be wrong but sometimes just sometimes they can spark an idea in another and that idea could spark a discussion and if enough people talk about what matters than that my friends is a revolution. I think revolution large scale or small is good for the soul.
That is all for now but this madness will probably continue all through winter. So in the mean time this trailers for you!
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ladylovelybrit:
better is definitely good. 
groove:
I miss good, engaging conversations, too. It seems like in my 20s, I just had so much more time... how does that happy? I don't *feel* any different now then I did then, but it seems like my friends and I had so much more time to spend talking until late in the night. Now, I just feel frazzled all the time. Maybe it's time to step back for a while...