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My weekend in London didn't turn out like I hoped.
I'm going to miss Ishsha so much. I cried as I walked back to the bus from tooting.
My healthy eating went totally out the window at the weekend. So I'm starting my food diary from yesterday.

Tuesday:
2 Glasses of orange juice
Bowl of Special K and Soy Milk
2 Black Teas
3 Pitas with hummus and avocado and tomato
Loads of diet coke
2 Soya Yoghurts
1 shot of archers
A box of raisins
Some of a vegan mayo sarnie

Overall not a very good food day

Wednesday:
Bowl of special K and Soy Milk
2 Glasses of orange juice
1 Packet of raisins
2 plates of champ and onion gravy
3 vegan fish fingers (no, I have no idea how that makes any sense either!)
1 piece of bread with hummus and tomatoes
1 pint of sparkling water

Thursday:
Bowl of special K and Soy Milk
1 Glass of orange juice
1 Glass of pineapple juice
1 tub of green olives
1 packet of raisins
1 bowl of noodles
Loads of water
Two mini jacket potatoes and beans
Half a tub of salty popcorn (Again not good)

Friday:
Bowl of special K and Soy Milk
1 Glass of orange juice
Loads of water
2 Glasses of Sparkling water
Bowl of noodles
1 Slice of wholemeal toast topped with half a large avocado and lemon juice a bit of olive oil and lots of pepper
3 Houmous, avocado and tomato pittas

I need to try so much harder. The weight needs to go soon but my metabolism is so slow now that I don't smoke that it's such hard work. I need to do more exercise!
I want to be able to get up on Christmas day weigh myself and see the dial hit 9 stone. Well I can dream huh?

I guess I probably seem very superficial but I have a weight where I feel comfortable with my body and I'm currently a stone and a bit higher than that. I just want to feel happy in my body. I don't want t be as skinny as I was at one point.

So yes my weekend was a bit lame, although there were some very good points, but some really bad ones too. I ended up leaving early, but I did get to say goodbye to Ishsha properly. I also looked at some of the people I know and their drug use and it made me feel so much better that I have no desire to snort shit up my nose. I also saw what an arsehole I used to be when I was off my face in the way that they behaved and it just reinforced my desire to eventually cut everything intoxicating out of my life. It will take time, one thing at a time, but I will be 100% poison free.

I have decided to try and quit fizzy drinks except sparkling water and only drink one glass of juice every morning, other than that it's the tea and water for me for at least a while.

So at the moment, I'm not consuming:

Alcohol
Fizzy Drinks
Any animal products (This is an always one)
Sweets
Crisps

I want to try and cut out the bread if possible. I don't know how well that one will go though, Ive done it before and I did feel great but didn't stick it for very long. At least at the moment I'm cutting down on it a bit and I never eat white bread, I find it far too sweet.