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Thursday May 03, 2007

May 3, 2007
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My contact with Northrop Grumman ended Friday.

As such, I'm now unemployed. Again.

I'm currently in the midst of drowning my sorrows with a sixer of Newcastle and a pack of American Spirit "perique blend" cigarettes. And 12mg of Lunesta.

No idea what to do now other than whore myself out on job-finding websites.

Lexapro keeps me feeling sane, but underneath that is a series of thoughts that repeat "(I wanna) die" over and over again.

This has gone beyond live giving me lemons; rather, live has given me a whole lot of shit to deal with that's last for at years the past several years.

What more is there for me here? Pessimism says nothing at all.
kay:
Oh, I survived the summer down there. Bloody barely though. I had 2 horrendous bosses I was working with/for, so it really made for a long season. Throw on far too many people and 24 hours of light, I surprised I was not postal by the time I left.

You take care love. I browsed through you journal. Sounds like things have been turbulent. I'm sure that is putting it rather politely, but just the same, take care.

~cheers
May 3, 2007

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