avalyn

This is in all likelihood my last blog post here. My account expires on January 16 and I'm not renewing it, so this is the last you'll see of me unless one of those roaming, mysterious benefactors gifts me with a few more months, as I've heard they've been known to do for long-time site users. (Has it really been almost 8 years? Hot damn.)...
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This is the most beautiful music I've heard in a really long time.

I was planning on writing something to post this past Sunday (August 29, the 5th anniversary) about Hurricane Katrina, since I was in New Orleans when it happened, but my heart just wasn't in it. Especially not after wading through pages of google image search results for "hurricane katrina". Not sure what made me think it was a good idea to look at those.

Twilight is just like soccer. They run around for two hours, nobody scores, and its billion fanatical fans insist you just don't understand.

Numb.

How did I get here?

Well, my birthday came and went on Tuesday.

I generally don't celebrate birthdays or holidays. As such, I didn't get any presents. Oh well.

I wish I had some local friends, so I could've at least gone out and got drunk with them or something.

Being shy and having agoraphobia really sucks.

Today (August 4) is my thirty-third birthday.

I don't want to be old. I want to be young and hot. ... and a girl. But I suppose that's neither here nor there.

I have nothing at all going for me. No friends, no social life, no job, and nothing about my life that seems interesting. Sometimes I wonder why I even bother.

I just wish...
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So today I talked my dad into loaning me $500 to cover bills and whatnot until I get my tax refunds in 60-90 days*. So big ups on dad for that.

My meds have been changed recently. I'm now on Lamictal, Geodon, Effexor XR, Ambien CR and Klonopin.

I applied for a job at Target. Haven't heard back from them yet. I feel so useless...
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I've just had 10mg of Klonopin, 24mg of Lunesta and a bottle of Yuengling beer. No effect. I wish I could sleep.

Extremely high latency tonight = no Ulduar for me.

I was diagnosed as bipolar a couple weeks ago. Good times, eh?

I saw "The Wizard of Gore" DVD, starring a few SGs (Nixon and Flux, and a couple more but I forget who), for sale at Wal-Mart* last night. It was in the $13 discount rack.

It even has a little blurb on the front that reads "Featuring the SuicideGirls!"

Truly, the apocalypse is at hand. SuicideGirls. At WAL-MART, which is...
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