So anyhow..My workout and diet and being fucking killed , and it really is getting to take its toll on me..So..last night they come and get me after work and tell me we are going out to dinner..so they pic this place where nothing is heathy really and their salads suck asss royally, so I order this grilled chicken and tomato with a side a sweet potato..thinking i'm doing good..then they want to go to Boarders and look at stuff, we dont get home'till 8 and i dont work out again..We had sex last night, and the entire time Im am peroccupied with my self hate.
Someone just fucking shoot me. enough is enough. If i'm tired and worn I just dont have the strength to keep my self postive. I feel I am completely worthless. I wonder what the fuck he is doing with me. I convince myself he will leave. then I want to leave him to spare him the hell if being with me.
I slept on the couch last night, i did something horrible, and am lucky to even be talking to you this morning.
I called out sick from work and was told I had to come in today, no questions asked.
thats it..I dont have much to say.
In lighter news. I will post some new shots soon from a certain set.
This is my brain..I just want to hide today
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We should go get SG tattoos so we'll both have lifetime meberships.
Stop making yourself feel guilty. You're doing awesome so far, just take it easy. Baby steps, girl, baby steps. The holidays are the hardest times to diet and excersise, and you're doing more than most people. Sure you've heard this a bazillion times, but I think you're beautiful just the way you are.