avalon13chase

any hope i had of getting to sleep last nite was dashed. I have a huge problem sleeping lately. I have so much in my head. I was talking to to Brian last night about my school stuff, and my mom's illness and just all sorts of junk.
I really just want all this off my plate. I want to feel like Im doing SOMETHING. I really just feel kind of like ok im 25 and im not doing much of anything. I am capeable of great things, even if it is getting naked..I just want to be appricated, you know. I just feel like im at a road block and it really is just fromt he lack of sleep I'm sure.
My weight has almost got to where I want it. Im getting excited about that. I will be in Philly and Jersey Oct 13-15. Im looking forward to getting away. It'll be nice, becuase it'll be my brother, Brian and I..a stress free weekend.
I had sex last nite. I think Brian may be obsessed with my bum..it really is funny..becuase he watches it move, and he thinks i dont notice..of course i notice, and I love it.
We are at a really important point in the relationship. The wedding is being discussed alot, and not by my prompting.
Its weds. and I have yet to freak out..this week could be good.
I love u
AC