avalon

the weather is strange now. it is spring and yet it feels like autumn. maybe it is the cool air... things are good. the days are tedious and trying, but i perservere. i wish i could collect my thoughts more eloquently. i always have ephifanys that i forget the next day, or lose my train of thought on. i am getting ready to move in with my boyfriend, crooked_crown. looking forward to it. we will have a beautifully large apartment decorated tastefully. i will actually have a closet, which will be a nice change! i need to write more, as i have a lot going on. i just don't really have the time anymore. i am in love with the new NIN cd. i watched sleepy hollow last night and it is no wonder why it is one of my favorites. it is so artistic and it reminds me of falls in kentucky. gloomy, rainy, naturally beautiful. no matter what anyone says- i adore kentucky. it is so beautiful here. i will always love it, but i do need to leave soon and seek other avenues of nature. maybe the desert? perhaps but i despise hot weather and sweating so i will have to work that out. i mean- i am half hispanic but i have always lived in relativley colder climates. it is small things that i love- i guess- in a nutshell that is me. kisses on the back of my neck when i wake up. free lunch at work. a new harcut. stickers. purple toe nail polish. suicide girl underwear. little pleasures. i am a small person. small and driven. watch out midgets.

used DVD's i picked up:
-sleepy hollow
-traffic
-basic instint
-rocky horror picture show
-garden state
-fight club
-heathers
-a beautiful mind

cd's:
-nin-with teeth
-the ultimate journey collection

it is thunderstorming out. thunderstorms excite me in a way i can't describe. all i can say is it is truly inspirational to me. so gorgeous and sexy they are. powerful. dark. mysterious. kinda like all the guys i am attracted to. hmmmm.....

i really want a honeydew green tea I.C. from panera bread right now. them shits are the whip! go buy me one. stat.

i have decided i do not get paid enough at work. i, no doubt, gross prolly about 40G's a year. but with my eduation and my talent at my job, they hardly pay me for what i am worth. not trying to gloat- i just know what i deserve and i am reasonable about it. besides i need to buy a new car. and lot of shoes and MAC makeup (thank god my boyfriend's cousin works there). gee- when did i get so girly?

this blog is homosexual. i have no real objective with this. i am losing my touch with writing. i was getting in to a groove there for a while. i just can't write when i am happy. but here is a shot-

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may day was the hay day
we sipped wine and charged on
with furious joy
the wind curled between my fingers
the air through my woes
sweet. hearts. divine.
tears are but hurdles
pain is but a girdle
both scar but heal in time
pull it tighter
feel it deeper
than you ever have before
rewards are greater
satisfaction crystalized
and in hypnotizing eyes
the rabbit hole echos
a unchartered soul
love
blood
and
i
becoming
whole

thank you, to the one that wears the crooked crown

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Avalon