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How do you get a "crush" out of youre head? what do you do to make your mind stop seeing them that way?

*back story*

back in 2003, my junior year of highschool i had a huge thing for an awesome guy, and feeling where mutual.

funny story, my now husband (who i also knew in highschool but did not date until 2 years after he graduated) Knew about my "crushes" feeling for me. i think they talked about it once, anyway my husband told me years later he figured he had no chance with me because of that mutual affection we had.

anyways me and my "crush" never dated, (i was in a relationship at the time) nothing, just a school friendship. he graduated 2 years before me and i never seen him again. but he was always in the back of my mind. the one who got away sorta thing.

thanks to social media we connected through myspace. talked a bunch then outa nowhere he stopped msg. me.
i gave up, moved on... and placed the thoughts back inside deep away. a few weeks after that i meet back up with my now husband through a link of events. we started dating, weeks turned to months, months turned to years. then i had my son. then i married.

then outa the blue i get a friend request on fb. its my "crush" (hes also requested my husband too) now this is fine no big deal, no grief from my husband, after all it was just a highschool crush. no big deal.

but for some reason it still burns in my head. those feelings come back when i see his post, or a picture.

just to mention, I would never leave my husband... i would never act on these feelings.these are all just thoughts and memories in my head. but as a human these feeling are there and are natural. its okay to feel this way to an extent, but i feel like its going to fare, and i these feeling gone! i dont want that flame lit.

but i also dont want to delete him for some stupid reason like this. i am still intrested in being a friend, after all that is all we ever where in highschool. and like i mentioned he is a good guy...

Social media is a very tricky thing now a days.