avaadora

i wanna thank you guys for giving me the advise. it sorta brought a smile to my sad,sad face.

but soon after i posted that blog yesterday things went very very bad.

my relationship is up in the air as of now. i feel like i am going crazy my mind is everywhere i cant stop crying and i feel so alone. i have no one to talk to and worst of all i really dont have a "home" now.

i cannot stand the way this is making me feel, i called james today begging him to call me on his lunch break, begging him to talk to me. He said he will...but we will see. worst of all as i was getting of the phone i said i love you. followed by a dead silence. no reply.

so i probably wont be on for a while, and i don't really know whats going to happen...