Last night has got to be one of the worst nights iv had in a long, very long time. all the things i love and hold deer to me came crashing down on me, all at onces!
when i came home from work my boyfriend James was sitting on the couch with this horrible look on his face, he said "sit down now! we need to talk" And at that moment i knew what he was going to say.
(flash back three days ago) It all started on none other than the myspace, go figure. anyway my best friend in the whole world got into a myspace dispute with my brother. things where said name calling occurred and then my good name got dragged into there dispute via my brother. apparently she did like that and and called me a whore, she told my brother i cheated on james, because my brother told her she was a whore and that i could back him up on that.
Then my brother forwarded me the msg where she said i cheated on james. i was furious i spent the whole day in shock, how could my friend say that, and why would she say that, to all the people in the world why spread lies to my brother?
So i held it in, i didn't talk to my brother about it, i didn't tell james about what she said, instead i waited for my "friend" to redeem her self. I had faith in her to put things right. and she did, she called me the day after that msg and apologized for that childish thing she did.
so life went on things where set right and i thought i could put it all behind me and forgive her. NO on day 3 she texted James and said "i hope the two of you are okay and that you worked everything out" Jame of course said "what do you mean?" (i guess i made the mistake of not telling james what she said, but who could blame me?) (why mention it if you think you got it all under control) she went on to tell james that i cheated on him a year ago and had this amazing back story set up all based on what i was doing a year ago (after all she lived with us, she knew when we argued, she knew where i was going, she knew i had to work over night at at my retail job) she used that all against me.
(fast foreword to last night) James was convinced i cheated, after all the facts all lead seemed to be there.
my heart broke in so many ways. not only did the person i trusted more than anything betrayed me, she spread lies to my family and my b/f of almost 4 years, all because of a slit falling out, over the fact that my brother knows she a whore, because of me...all because of many past happenings (there are fare to many to name) she destroyed my trust between james and i. She hit me where it hurt, and she knew what she was doing.!
after about 3 hours of defending myself against some thing that seems so true i finally got James back on my side, the phone call to my "friend" on speaker phone really helped. she admitted to lying to james over while he stood in the room. again i thought it was over but no, 10mins later she started texted james againg saying she wasn't lying, and it stared again. But this time she said she was going to foreword him a msg i wrote via myspace, one where i said i was a cheater and that i was keeping it a secret.
Luckly her boyfriend came to my rescue and txt james saying "i am done, her childish behavior is on called for, i am sorry for the shit she stared, please ignore her" and then it was done, just like that, her text stoped coming in. she stoped calling my house and things calmed down.
but on to today, i know her better than anyone in this world, and i know shes not going to stop, until she sees blood.
i am so scared that when i come home from work again ill have to face another battle, ill have to defend my name onces again. and it really hurts, i lost a best friend yesterday, infact i lost the only friend i really have at this point. i lost james complete trust (even though he says he believes me, i know there's that small part of him wondering if its true)
yesterday i lost the things i held so close to me, i lost it all, and its killing me, the angzity i am feeling is to much to bare, the things i worked so hard for all slipping away.
If this happened to you how would you of handled it? what would you have done?
should i just let what happens happen?
or am i doomed?
when i came home from work my boyfriend James was sitting on the couch with this horrible look on his face, he said "sit down now! we need to talk" And at that moment i knew what he was going to say.
(flash back three days ago) It all started on none other than the myspace, go figure. anyway my best friend in the whole world got into a myspace dispute with my brother. things where said name calling occurred and then my good name got dragged into there dispute via my brother. apparently she did like that and and called me a whore, she told my brother i cheated on james, because my brother told her she was a whore and that i could back him up on that.
Then my brother forwarded me the msg where she said i cheated on james. i was furious i spent the whole day in shock, how could my friend say that, and why would she say that, to all the people in the world why spread lies to my brother?
So i held it in, i didn't talk to my brother about it, i didn't tell james about what she said, instead i waited for my "friend" to redeem her self. I had faith in her to put things right. and she did, she called me the day after that msg and apologized for that childish thing she did.
so life went on things where set right and i thought i could put it all behind me and forgive her. NO on day 3 she texted James and said "i hope the two of you are okay and that you worked everything out" Jame of course said "what do you mean?" (i guess i made the mistake of not telling james what she said, but who could blame me?) (why mention it if you think you got it all under control) she went on to tell james that i cheated on him a year ago and had this amazing back story set up all based on what i was doing a year ago (after all she lived with us, she knew when we argued, she knew where i was going, she knew i had to work over night at at my retail job) she used that all against me.
(fast foreword to last night) James was convinced i cheated, after all the facts all lead seemed to be there.
my heart broke in so many ways. not only did the person i trusted more than anything betrayed me, she spread lies to my family and my b/f of almost 4 years, all because of a slit falling out, over the fact that my brother knows she a whore, because of me...all because of many past happenings (there are fare to many to name) she destroyed my trust between james and i. She hit me where it hurt, and she knew what she was doing.!
after about 3 hours of defending myself against some thing that seems so true i finally got James back on my side, the phone call to my "friend" on speaker phone really helped. she admitted to lying to james over while he stood in the room. again i thought it was over but no, 10mins later she started texted james againg saying she wasn't lying, and it stared again. But this time she said she was going to foreword him a msg i wrote via myspace, one where i said i was a cheater and that i was keeping it a secret.
Luckly her boyfriend came to my rescue and txt james saying "i am done, her childish behavior is on called for, i am sorry for the shit she stared, please ignore her" and then it was done, just like that, her text stoped coming in. she stoped calling my house and things calmed down.
but on to today, i know her better than anyone in this world, and i know shes not going to stop, until she sees blood.
i am so scared that when i come home from work again ill have to face another battle, ill have to defend my name onces again. and it really hurts, i lost a best friend yesterday, infact i lost the only friend i really have at this point. i lost james complete trust (even though he says he believes me, i know there's that small part of him wondering if its true)
yesterday i lost the things i held so close to me, i lost it all, and its killing me, the angzity i am feeling is to much to bare, the things i worked so hard for all slipping away.
If this happened to you how would you of handled it? what would you have done?
should i just let what happens happen?
or am i doomed?
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You are honestly one of the most awesome chicks ive ever know, and i hope he knows that, cause if he dont hes an idiot(no offense) but he should know what you mean, and just respect the truth coming from you, and not some caddy bitch trying to knife you in the back.
I don't know what else to tell you, but that I love you, and you always have a friend in me, no matter what. <3