autumnxlove

So yesterday was pretty shitty! I went back to school after having a week off for reading break. I got a bad headache in class cause I couldnt read what she was putting on the tv cause it was all zoomed in and really fuzzy. well I could read it but it was a big strain on my eyes..
I went to lunch with mom after that and I wasnt really that hungry but I made myself eat cause she was paying
After that I stopped at Darceys to give him a list of things to pack for Seattle cause I will be in Van the day before, so he better have everything ready!!
I spent far too long at his house though and then I didnt have enough time to go to the library to work on my essay.
So I came home to work on it, but before I did I went downstairs to get something to eat. Before I ate though, I weighed myself since its in the pantry and I freaked out cause I gained 5 more pounds. wtf. now that I actually exercise im gaining weight, but before when I did nothing I stayed the same? ugh this doesnt make sense! So I got really upset, got another bad headache and didnt end up doing the essay.
Wow, im great at stuff.
I talked to darcey and he made me feel better but I cant help feeling like im fat now since I keep gaining weight. ughhhh its gross. I guess I need to work out more, and eat healthier, but I just dont get it.