I stayed home and I'm watching reruns of Sex and the City. Everyone needs a personal day. Lately I have been taking one too many. Maybe? It feels good to stay home and do my own thing. I like having quiet time. I need to get back to work and back to my normal schedule however I haven't quite found what I'm looking for. I keep backing away from life hoping to find something... I'm missing something, hopefully it will come soon.
It's the oddest feeling to be happy but still not feel completely content. Maybe its just me. Maybe I will always be looking for better. Maybe that's not a bad thing. I really feel as though I should appreciate the life I have and just stop but I feel like I am just not where I should be. It's just this uneasy feeling I have had for the past few months. I don't know which way to go.
Sorry for all the negative posts lately! It's such a weird way to portray myself because I am mostly a positive person and rarely let anyone see these sort of thoughts and emotions. Just feels nice to get my feelings and fleeting thoughts out. <3 A.