aurora_b_alice

I am recently enjoying the company of many new friends. I've somehow finally emerged from my prolonged bout of social retardation and I can hold a somewhat, dare I say, interesting and intelligent conversation. Hello, self confidence, my elusive friend, it has been awhile. As always, though, there is a flip side to all this and the contrast of the lonely evenings is magnified by the socializing. Sometimes I hate being alone. Im having a hard time falling asleep. I lay there and try to conjure a pair of invisible arms that are convincing enough to cuddle me into sleep. Sometimes it takes awhile. I wish I had some sort of hard fact to hold on to that assures that this will be over soon, and that everything is going to be okay.