atxjim

Well, I am hitting this point of seriously questioning a lot of things. Much of what I thought was solid in my life has crumbled lately, and I am starting to really, really question the worth of my "chosen" profession. I make videogames for a living. Every fanboy's dream job, right?? Yeah... so anyway I think this has been building for a few years now (i've been doing this for 12) I just don't see much value in it. I have a fear of looking back later in life and realizing that I spent untold hours and expended untold mental energy on making mediocre diversions for people. I guess there's some value in providing people a break form their humdrum lives, etc; but I cannot convinve myself that what I am doing in any real way makes the world a better place. I think I am going to want to leave it better than i found it; sort of akin to camping, right? Something to help people, help the world, etc. Maybe it is time for me to go back to school. Fuck. I dunno.
It's weighing heavily upon me lately.