I saved somebody's life tonight. Such an amazing feeling followed by the worse.
It's hard for me to reach out. To communicate. I don't know. I really need someone to talk to. There are somethings bothering me. I can't keep them bottled up inside anymore.
And I hate myself because I feel weak for writing this. I shouldn't have to need anyone, or their help with anything. I should just be able to deal with everything all on my own. And it shouldn't matter to you, because you don't know me. You don't care.
i'm so good at pushing people away i don't realize it anymore. I don't know what to think of anyone anymore. I stuff it all down inside as deep as I can. I hide it. Pretend it isn't there. I feel it, but I don't let it show. I fake a smile when need be. I lie and say everything is great.
Everything is great.
It's hard for me to reach out. To communicate. I don't know. I really need someone to talk to. There are somethings bothering me. I can't keep them bottled up inside anymore.
And I hate myself because I feel weak for writing this. I shouldn't have to need anyone, or their help with anything. I should just be able to deal with everything all on my own. And it shouldn't matter to you, because you don't know me. You don't care.
i'm so good at pushing people away i don't realize it anymore. I don't know what to think of anyone anymore. I stuff it all down inside as deep as I can. I hide it. Pretend it isn't there. I feel it, but I don't let it show. I fake a smile when need be. I lie and say everything is great.
Everything is great.
i hope you feel better soon.