atticusgray

i've been feeling a lot better lately. the closest summer gets, the more i can feel myself moving onward. this year is all about preparations for me, next year I will begin the next chapter in my life. and i have waited for so long... and so goes the saying "good things come to those who wait."

there's so much out in the world, it's...
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Hey All,

Thanks again for all the b-day comments. I appreciate it. It's hard to believe we've already spent another month. Fucking crazy how life moves at times.

I really have to update my picture, so I'll get on that the next few weeks. This one is kinda old. There's so much I have to get into gear for this summer.

A lot feels different...
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When all that is left is a hole deep inside,
A hold so deep that it's so hard to hide,
And though you may try it all surfaces in time

The pain that you feel comes into the light

I thinking about dying tonight... I bid you my final goodnight.

Goodbye all.

- Atticus

I saved somebody's life tonight. Such an amazing feeling followed by the worse.

It's hard for me to reach out. To communicate. I don't know. I really need someone to talk to. There are somethings bothering me. I can't keep them bottled up inside anymore.

And I hate myself because I feel weak for writing this. I shouldn't have to need anyone, or their help...
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On the coldest morning I await you. Filled with thoughts that bring stinging tears. My body longs the touch of another. I pretend I can feel you here.

Only could I touch you and have you accept me in the shortest distortions that are my dreams. We will walk together beneath the sunrise. I can feel you... here with me.

The cold dies away now...
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Come closer and I'll hold you, you'll never find yourself astray. I know just where you are, and you know where I'll always be when you need someone to hang on to. With open arms I'll be waiting. Don't hesitate to show me how you feel.

It's hard I know to fight the pain. Of everything the soul retains. I wish I could reach in...
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Beneath a bright blue sky on clear summers afternoon, as the waves calmly wash up onto the shoreline. And there we were in our eternal moment of happiness. But darkness calls quietly. It's approached almost undetected.

And you were gone, stolen from me in this life. But I still see you whenever I close my eyes. In my dreams we still walk that shoreline. And...
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There must be something wrong with me. My only question is what the fuck?

Women's bodies are so incredible. They are art in and of themselves. I love looking at all of you and taking in your beauty. Each of you share similarities, but all of you have distinct characteristics that make you even more incredible. That make you individual.

In a world that seems to be plagued with so much despair much of the time, you match the...
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A DREAM BETTER FORGOTTEN

A. Gray

the sun doesn't shine here for me. this place is cold from the isolation i cannot seem to break.

hold me, please. i need to feel a heart beating against me. i need to find you, because inside your arms i will find some kind of peace.

when a heart bleeds, it does so profusely. take a look me,...
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so today begins a new season... spring. everything still feels the same, but in time i'll sure that'll change. maybe not everything feels the same...

slowly i do feel things coming back together. i finally feel as though the past is becoming just that... the past. it's over, and now it's time to start focusing on all the tomorrows that are ahead of me.

this...
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what do you say when someone you love calls you at 8 o'clock in the evening and tells you that they are dying...