Last night was very... revealing to me:
I believe that some of us have a portion of our lives where we feel that we are for lack of a better phrase "big man (or woman) on campus." You all might read that and say "what the fuck does that mean?" but I shall explain. We find ourselves situated in a community where we are well known or have many friends. Its a comfortable feeling. The best example I can give is if one were to go out on a saturday night and know a lot of people. As if you couldn't turn a corner without seeing a familiar face, a friend you haven't seen for a while or that buddy you call up every day to hang out with.
Last night I realized that this state of mind doesn't last forever. In most cases life doesn't allow us to remain in this comfortable frame of mind. Circumstances force us to adapt, evolve and eventually break the boundaries of our comfort in order to make us grow as human beings. Sometimes this transition is positive and we come out better for it; other times its not. But as time passes and we look back on those "golden years" or even go back to those comfortable places to re-live those happy times.. you realize that the flavor of the moment has been lost. The essence that made those days and nights so meaningful is no longer there.
The reason I brought this up is because I went back to my college town to see some people before I make my departure soon. As I spend some of the night going to my old stomping grounds, I realized that the faces I see passing around me aren't the same. The streets I walked up and down dont' feel the same. As if one minute detail has ruined the whole experience for me. Even though I saw a couple people I knew, I felt as if I was a man out of time; outdated or expired.
Standing upon this new horizon in front of me, I cannot help but feel overwhelmed with a dizzying array of emotions that fluctuate from one moment to the next. Today I feel "up" about the whole endeavor. 64 more days, friends.
Leave each day and savor the flavor of each moment.
I believe that some of us have a portion of our lives where we feel that we are for lack of a better phrase "big man (or woman) on campus." You all might read that and say "what the fuck does that mean?" but I shall explain. We find ourselves situated in a community where we are well known or have many friends. Its a comfortable feeling. The best example I can give is if one were to go out on a saturday night and know a lot of people. As if you couldn't turn a corner without seeing a familiar face, a friend you haven't seen for a while or that buddy you call up every day to hang out with.
Last night I realized that this state of mind doesn't last forever. In most cases life doesn't allow us to remain in this comfortable frame of mind. Circumstances force us to adapt, evolve and eventually break the boundaries of our comfort in order to make us grow as human beings. Sometimes this transition is positive and we come out better for it; other times its not. But as time passes and we look back on those "golden years" or even go back to those comfortable places to re-live those happy times.. you realize that the flavor of the moment has been lost. The essence that made those days and nights so meaningful is no longer there.
The reason I brought this up is because I went back to my college town to see some people before I make my departure soon. As I spend some of the night going to my old stomping grounds, I realized that the faces I see passing around me aren't the same. The streets I walked up and down dont' feel the same. As if one minute detail has ruined the whole experience for me. Even though I saw a couple people I knew, I felt as if I was a man out of time; outdated or expired.
Standing upon this new horizon in front of me, I cannot help but feel overwhelmed with a dizzying array of emotions that fluctuate from one moment to the next. Today I feel "up" about the whole endeavor. 64 more days, friends.
Leave each day and savor the flavor of each moment.
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i miss you. come back to dark iron. (: