I am in pain. My body aches, I can barely stand and my heart strains every beat. Even with my pain killers, I am struggling to cope. What is it about emotional pain that causes the physical to become unbearable? This amplified pain is causing me to panic that I might relapse into who I was this time last year. I'm scared that all of my hard work and efforts can be so easily undone by me being alone for so long. This soul crushing loneliness is preventing me from being me. I go out less and less, fearing the physical and emotional pain more than the chance of companionship. I can't focus on my work, my mind too filled with useless thoughts. I can barely walk, the pain in my ankles exaggerated by my unwillingness to fight the pain. Moping on here wont help, but the thought of someone casually reading this and simply typing it out is a small relief.
Still fighting a loosing battle
Atlas
Still fighting a loosing battle
Atlas
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carnelian:
Yeah 
I understand that but I'm a bit insane about names and the meaning of names. So if I must give one to myself it has to be something I really like in a number of ways. I've been through my name book a million times. Haha everything I like is either taken or somehow annoys me. Yesterday I was Shit for a few hours LOL I don't think anyone noticed but I thought it was funny.
I understand that but I'm a bit insane about names and the meaning of names. So if I must give one to myself it has to be something I really like in a number of ways. I've been through my name book a million times. Haha everything I like is either taken or somehow annoys me. Yesterday I was Shit for a few hours LOL I don't think anyone noticed but I thought it was funny.
_indica:
lol birthday bash for sure... n thanks... I sure didnt feel so beautiful not being able to see outta both eyes. But Im doing much better today!