I don't know who I'm fucking kidding. Five weeks is not long enough to finish my phd. It might be if it weren't such a great big pile of shit.
I've spent nearly 4 years on this fucker now, and right now it feels like the biggest waste of time I've ever found. There's not one useful bit of science in the whole fucking thing. I know that cos I've written the science bits up, they're out there in the community in the form of refereed journal papers and no-one could care less, least of all me. And now I get to revisit these pathetic excuses for how I've spent the last 4 years of my life, and I have to plug the holes and try and get someone to see worth where I see none and give me a phd. Bollocks. This is why I'm a soon to be ex-astronomer. I haven't done anything of interest, so I can't get a job. ANd I can't be fucked to waste more of my time jumping through hoops to get those three extra letters after my name (or 2 before). But then how fucking stupid do I look to all my friends and family if I've spent 4 years of stress to have nothing, not even a phd, to show for it. About as stupid as I am, that's how.
I'm just 5 weeks away from the end, and I've lost the will to finish it.
fuck fuck fuck fuck fuck fuck fuck fuck fuck
edited: on a lighter note I've put up some pictures of the party. It seems like a long time ago now.
I've spent nearly 4 years on this fucker now, and right now it feels like the biggest waste of time I've ever found. There's not one useful bit of science in the whole fucking thing. I know that cos I've written the science bits up, they're out there in the community in the form of refereed journal papers and no-one could care less, least of all me. And now I get to revisit these pathetic excuses for how I've spent the last 4 years of my life, and I have to plug the holes and try and get someone to see worth where I see none and give me a phd. Bollocks. This is why I'm a soon to be ex-astronomer. I haven't done anything of interest, so I can't get a job. ANd I can't be fucked to waste more of my time jumping through hoops to get those three extra letters after my name (or 2 before). But then how fucking stupid do I look to all my friends and family if I've spent 4 years of stress to have nothing, not even a phd, to show for it. About as stupid as I am, that's how.
I'm just 5 weeks away from the end, and I've lost the will to finish it.
fuck fuck fuck fuck fuck fuck fuck fuck fuck
edited: on a lighter note I've put up some pictures of the party. It seems like a long time ago now.
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Is your program or advisor forcing you to finish right now?
This may be irrelevant to your situation, but my solution to the PhD mess was to take my sweet old time (this is my 6th year, and my advisor seems to have no problem with the possibility of my being here a 7th year) -- I've had numerous smart people tell me that no one cares how long you spent in grad school. On the other hand, if your advisor is letting you finish it seems there should be something of value in what you've done -- after all, your work reflects on your advisor to some extent.
Thanks for the comment, by the way; the jury's still out.