astilllife

My birthday is in two days. One of the things I've been thinking about is my age and where I should be by now. Still in school...8 years straight. I keep thinking that by the time I'm 30 I should be married or getting ready to be married. But I realize that...ummm...where does this hangup come from? Why should I be married. Is something bad going to happen within the next 5 years? No, maybe its society or just people I know finding others and I feel like I need to get out and find my a wife. Life doesn't end unless you want it to. Or I keep thinking that when I get a job my life is over. If anything, my workload has increased substantially and I have so many other responsibilities compared to college and yet I've never felt more alive! I'm learning how to control my spending so I have the money to enjoy expensive things (living alone is fucking expensive) and I've only had to ask for money once...200 dollars...because moving and furnishing an apartment, a dental exam and cleaning, buying new car tires, paying my car and renters insurance was so much I needed a cushion. Writing this tells me things aren't too bad...not bad at all.