assface

i have no right what so ever to feel this way. im not sure what i was thinking. there was no way for things to conclude without me feeling horrible. i always screw myself that way. instead of ripping of the bandage quickly i wait as long as possible. even though i know the longer i wait the worse it will feel in the end.
contact. eye contact. skin contact.
we touched. somehow this is an amazing thing to me. it makes me want to cry.
it feels too wonderful. i have no control. i shouldnt becasue i know how horrible the withdrawl will be. some people cant handle drugs; i cant handle feeling this way. i need to admit i have a problem and attempt to seperate myself from the thing that makes me feel like this.
it wont work. god why cant we freeze and stay like that.

you make me forget what i am.