so the past few days have solidified my thoughts about suicide girls. as in, i have a very love/hate relationship with this site.
on one hand, hot naked girls and pr0n. need i say more? I didn't think so either.
on the other hand, i'm at a point in my life right now where althought it strikes me as hot, really the only thing i get out of it is god, i'll never look like that..
which is mostly because looking like that would involve things like wearing makeup and dressing attractively on a regular basis, while in reality 90% of the time i'm scummy. I live in my doc martens, badly need a haircut, don't even know where my makeup stash is, bite my fingernails so they're all ragged and nasty, etc etc etc.
In short, being a girl, it mostly just strikes me how much sheer effort I would have to put into my life to look that hot, which just depresses me even more. Or something.
It also goes back to my whole pet peeve of constructed internet identity. I refuse to play that game, because of the inherent fakeness of it all -- but yet, everytime I have to surf facebook (or suicidegirls, for that matter) and look at all the pretty, smiling faces, i think, god i'm ugly.
Or maybe it's that i'm just so much happier behind the camera.
(muahah. you friended me looking for..well, i don't know what you were looking for, but you get WHINY TEENAGE ANGST instead!
sorry kids. /whining. i promise.)
on one hand, hot naked girls and pr0n. need i say more? I didn't think so either.
on the other hand, i'm at a point in my life right now where althought it strikes me as hot, really the only thing i get out of it is god, i'll never look like that..
which is mostly because looking like that would involve things like wearing makeup and dressing attractively on a regular basis, while in reality 90% of the time i'm scummy. I live in my doc martens, badly need a haircut, don't even know where my makeup stash is, bite my fingernails so they're all ragged and nasty, etc etc etc.
In short, being a girl, it mostly just strikes me how much sheer effort I would have to put into my life to look that hot, which just depresses me even more. Or something.
It also goes back to my whole pet peeve of constructed internet identity. I refuse to play that game, because of the inherent fakeness of it all -- but yet, everytime I have to surf facebook (or suicidegirls, for that matter) and look at all the pretty, smiling faces, i think, god i'm ugly.
Or maybe it's that i'm just so much happier behind the camera.
(muahah. you friended me looking for..well, i don't know what you were looking for, but you get WHINY TEENAGE ANGST instead!
sorry kids. /whining. i promise.)
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You picture looks "officially" pretty to me, and evidently others as well
Beauty is in the eye of the beholder, what I see as classic beauty is different from what the modeling industy, etc. says it is. So, consider yourself attractive, inside and outside.