I seem to go through periods of anxiety and relative peace. Quite a few of my friends at college are dropping out or might get kicked out if they don't raise their grades. I enjoy things here; except that people keep leaving. And there's always my anxiety towards my guy-thing.
A few days ago when someone I knew had dropped out and I was upset he insisted on coming over to just spend time with me. He didn't even try to be physical and spent the night with me. But of course he can't be consistant in any way, so a few short days later he kept refering to a girl he had a little fling with in Mexico as his Mexican girlfriend and talked about things she had said. As I know and as everyone keeps telling me, I deserve better and shouldn't put up with him. Too bad I think he's fantastic despite it all. Maybe if something better comes along I'll give up on him finally.
-Anastasia
A few days ago when someone I knew had dropped out and I was upset he insisted on coming over to just spend time with me. He didn't even try to be physical and spent the night with me. But of course he can't be consistant in any way, so a few short days later he kept refering to a girl he had a little fling with in Mexico as his Mexican girlfriend and talked about things she had said. As I know and as everyone keeps telling me, I deserve better and shouldn't put up with him. Too bad I think he's fantastic despite it all. Maybe if something better comes along I'll give up on him finally.
-Anastasia