asia8989

Well I feel like shit. Anyone else feel like shit? So if you've been reading this you know I liked that steve guy. I put that in the past a while ago, but it appears that he still thinks I'm a freaky stalker.(his friends and him came up with this because they see me by my window a lot-now my bed and desk are right by a giant window and also I like to space out and look outside all the time). Well it turns out that a couple weeks ago his on and off girlfriend from home killed herself.

I just feel bad that I might have in anyway put him through more stress. Well I'm shutting the blinds. Me living in the dark is not the worst thing that could happen.

Anyway I found this all out, because he kinda freaked out, messed up his room, and took one of his roommate's cars. I'm friends with the only roommate who happened to be around tonight to come home and find this and he asked me to come over and keep him company-with some of my vodka too. After a half hour or so Steve came back and it was awkward, but I didn't say a word-maybe made things weirder though. So shortly after that I left.

All in all I just feel like trash. I hate that me having these careless oh he's cute girly moments could have ever done any bad. I thought at the worst it would embarasse me. Well I think I'm going to go cry now.