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Good news is pouring in from all sides. Ok from two Sarahs. Number one I just met this year and has already come to be one of the coolest and nicest people I've ever known. Tonight she found out that my college is going to let her come back(earlier she dropped out due to personal/getting threatened by knife reasons).

The second Sarah I've known since...
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nessuno:
I'm sorry for your loss. I completely understand how it makes things feel wrong. My friend got diagnosed and died in less than 10 months. I hope you have been able to heal some in that time.

Congratulations for all this good news. It's good to hear life is on the up and up. This year has sucked hard so far, but several people are talking about good events so apparently a lot of turn comebacks are happening. Not the least of which is Obama, but then again I'm a political junkie.
nessuno:
I don't understand what you mean about 'almost a person', concerning Obama but I'll definitely agree that he's the first candidate in a long time to have sex appeal with some voters.
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I just started a new class and everything seems to be going well. The weather's crap in Iowa, but at least I didn't have class this afternoon. I decided that if Sarah wasn't going to start hanging out with our friend Jesse again then I was going to do it without her. Although I'm tired of her saying things like you must like Jesse if...
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nessuno:
Good for you in regards to your friend and standing up for what you want. Too much of the time we all live by appeasing others not going after what we ourselves desire to do.

In terms of a classic read I recommend Bury My Heart at Wounded Knee. It's a non-fiction novel which explains fromt the point of view of the Indians how the west was lost. It's not a propaganda piece that merely serves to make the reader feel guilt or sympathy. The writting is amazing and it has remained a highly read book since being published in the 70's. It is an excellent read wether for it's worth as a piece of literature or as a history book.

For a fun book, I'm addicted to the Dexter novel series by Jeff Lindsay. You probably already know about that series and if not there are many wiki articles that explain it better than I.

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I may be sorta drunk, but you get me anyway. Shitty things keep happening, but I seem to be able to keep positive. My springbreak trip to france with family was cancelled, adam continues to be a sometimes fantastic and sometimes assholish guy, this guy i had an off and on thing with all through highschool is talking to me(i don't know what to think...
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nessuno:
Asking Fear the Reaper if he gets tired of being negative is like asking a black hole if it gets tired of sucking.

nessuno:
At least he seems to be ranting about real causes right now and seems to be driving people to action, like the rape case, rather than another 'asshole fuck face roundup.'
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I seem to go through periods of anxiety and relative peace. Quite a few of my friends at college are dropping out or might get kicked out if they don't raise their grades. I enjoy things here; except that people keep leaving. And there's always my anxiety towards my guy-thing.

A few days ago when someone I knew had dropped out and I was upset...
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I'm back at school after that long break. Things look like they're going to be good and I hope to keep occupied. My big goal/new years thingy is to find something that i'm interested in for no reason, but my own.

I feel like I have a clean slate and I hope everyone else is doing well.

-anastasia
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I don't really know what to say. I guess it's better to know. I don't even know if it was told on purpose.

I like one washed up loser a year and it turns out he can't even like me back. I just don't really get it. I thought I was attractive, intelligent, nice. For the longest time I kept hearing that I was too...
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zoophagous:
Sometimes lifes lessons can be painful, but once you get the idea it is better to know.....
Change is alright, as long as you're doing it for you. Whenever you feel like you need to change who you are for someone else to like you, you're dealing with the wrong person.
Relationships do have small sacrfices and comprimises, but from both directions...you need to still be you.
You seem like a sweet girl, don't let it get to you too much. You'll be alright wink
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I figured out my current major. Although it's kinda a copout. It's philosphy which I do constantly if you read my blogs...or talk to me. The odd thing is I always feel like I'm wasting my time in class if I'm not learning something practical. Well all my friends are reacting by saying things like, "I was wondering when you'd figure this out". This should...
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nopantsdave:
Philosophy is a pretty much worthless degree unless you intend to go further and get the MA or PhD and teach...or unless you really love it.
asia8989:
It can be applied to everything and I have no idea what I want to do. My current plan is to go into the peace corps or something after college.
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Am I useable?

It appears so.

I don't know which were the lies, just that there were lies. I don't know if he gets when someone's reached their limit, but I've reached my fucking threshold.

Nothing's worth this, not as long as I don't even know what I want. It's never good enough yet. No matter the good it's not right.

C'est ma vie.
-Anastasia.
zoophagous:
I can't help but wonder how it is that you're constantly getting yourself into these situations.
It sounds like you need a whole new life......or all new people in the life you've got. Some quality people would help.
asia8989:
I keep dealing with the same person.
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So last night was a bit odd. I started it all out by getting drunk before five. Going to dinner and running into Mr. I'd rather have leprosy then date you and then I ran into him again after dinner. Remember that this was all while drunk, so I was basically awkwardly trying not to look at him. Then I drank some more and went...
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Shalala! I'm in a good mood if you can't tell. I'm going to get wine drunk(which is always a silly drunk), see the comedian that's coming to campus, hang with friends, go to this dance party thing, and hopefully sloppily makeout with someone. Ok I dont' actually like sloppy makingout, but good kissers are hard to find here and mine is being an idiot yet...
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wishryder:
Ditto on Paragraph #2, with the obvious he/she guy/girl replacements. Maybe I need to get wine drunk and sloppily make out with someone. I think one or both might perhaps cheer me up.
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Be as hot as you can when you're young, because when you're old and not all you'll have are your memories. My mom wore miniskirts and tube tops when she was my age, but my conservative clothing and tats freaks her out. She doesn't get why I don't wear more riskay things, but I really just don't find that attractive. The tats and piercings that...
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zachias:
As the song says...Parents just don't understand. It's completely a generational thing. Your parents probably hope that you're just "in a phase" that you'll grow out of. I've been in one of those "phases" for the better part of two decades. Unfortunately, my parents still haven't come around and probably won't. I'm ok with that. I've never needed my parents' acceptance or approval to be happy. They have their own life. Don't let them try to live through you. Rock on!!!!
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Break is nice. I finally don't have to worry about any homework. Thank you block plan!

So I kinda figured out that I totally like this guy. Why do I have to go for the guy that I ment when he was staring at me drunkenly? Oh yeah he's got a beard(which mades him look much older then he is), is overweight, and has even...
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