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eeeeeeeeeeeek.

i love london. it's great. but everybody's a stranger! it's fucking weird. there's so many places, so many places to go to. but you see and you forget everybody!

it's weird that. i don't get on with many, many people. but when i do it's great. the friends i have now here i've had for forever and without fail i've realised it very quickly.

i think i've made like 2 or 3 friends in the last year, sure, i get on with people, but you need something a little bit more to keep in touch. i try, i really do try, but everybody else has always got something else to do so it's so very easy just forget.

i don't know. sometimes i really would like to live in smaller city where everybody knows each other and you get a 'community'. but it doesn't happen like that here. it's too fucking big,

you get lost in the crowd. and i hate that. but that's what it's like. that's why i like this site, you can kind of keep track of people, no matter how far away they are. you always know if they are happy, sad or have their own problems even though i've maybe seen them a couple of times.

i feel comfortable with many people on this site, and it's a rare thing. and that's why i stay even though sometimes i see little point.

i don't look at pictures, and i have very little respect for some parts of the site, but i stay because of the people on it. i've met a lot of good, lovely people here and i hope you have thought good things about me.

so i'm going to stay. it's weird being a guy here because you kind of feel like an internet stalker most of the time! but i'll try to make an effort. - maybe get naked! you ladies can do it... so can we!! (yeah right!)

*edited to say - This is the day after. I was really pissed when i wrote the above, but i'm keeping it because it sounds quite funny. i passed out. i don't think beer, cider, snake bite and sambuca in the space of a few hours was very sensible.

oh and the new Depeche Mode album is bloody good.