ashi

i suck at doin stuff...err that doesn't sound rite

i tryed to quit smokin.... shit im smokin again
i tryed to quit eatin meat.... i still eat chicken and bacon but i still go veggie sometimes
im still stuck on english shit for home schoolin..... it makes me fall asleep and i think i have ADD or somthin
i wanna go to college and i think i might go to cookin school or med school.... i still need to graduate fuckin high school

im afraid to get drunk rite now.... i have almsot a whole bottle of vodka but im afraid to drink it kuz i might make drunkin fone calls like a dumb fuck to probly nathan kuz hes not talkin to me any more for some reason and im sad about it which it odd kuz i barley kno the kid.

i think i steped on somthin and now it stuck in my foot and it hurts like a bitch.
sooo the whole blood tests shit isn't done yet... i have to get up at fuckin 8am to get ANOTHER fuckin test and the last one gave me bruises and it hurts to drive with my right arm now i hate gettin my blood taken!

so this dude matt( ) i've gone over to his house twice and the last time was last night and then this morning i told him some stuff that he was ugly and he had a small dick(kuz he does!) and he called me a fatass and i almsot wanted to cry... then i looked at my full bod pix... i almost wanted to puke i look like a flippin whale! i really need to start workin out the sad thing is that if i wanna be the size i wanna be i basicly have to lose like 200lbs! gawd im fuckin fat! i think now i weigh 325. i should jus eat like once a day and jus drink water all day and work out like 4 or 5 times a week and do yoga n shit like that.

ok enuf of my self petty shit.... im goin to sleep after i have a few more shots of vodka