The way a crow shook down on me
the dust of snow from a hemlock tree
has given my heart a change of mood
and saved some part of a day I had rued.
-Robert Frost
I'm supposed to have a draft of that paper on Rwanda done today. It is not done. I'm also presenting my research in class. My research is lacking. It's going to be a rough day.
School aside, and its pretty damned hard to put school aside, things are pretty nice here right now. The weather is getting warmer and the last of the snow is melting off the ground. (Maple) Sugaring season has come and mostly gone. I took my first long walk in a while this afternoon. I don't get out enough. I love where I live. I love it because it is beautiful. I haven't had time to take advantage of that the past few years. That's bullshit. I have had the time. I've had plenty of time. But rather than use the time to get outdoors or to get my work done I've used it to blot out the world with video games. I drown out the responsible voices in my head with audiobooks and video games and TV. The last four years have been really, really bad, and I wonder how much of that badness I've caused by my failure to stand up and smash the things I've been using to shut out the world.
I spend a lot of time at a coffee shop a few towns over. I always order Turkish coffee, which I recently discovered they all hate to make. They've been nice to me anyway, so now I order tea. Anyway, the staff and the regulars all called me the Turkish guy before we got to know each other. Now they know me as Charlie Turkish, which I think is kind of funny. One of the other regulars gave me a kefir grain today, and I'm wicked excited about the possibilities.
the dust of snow from a hemlock tree
has given my heart a change of mood
and saved some part of a day I had rued.
-Robert Frost
I'm supposed to have a draft of that paper on Rwanda done today. It is not done. I'm also presenting my research in class. My research is lacking. It's going to be a rough day.
School aside, and its pretty damned hard to put school aside, things are pretty nice here right now. The weather is getting warmer and the last of the snow is melting off the ground. (Maple) Sugaring season has come and mostly gone. I took my first long walk in a while this afternoon. I don't get out enough. I love where I live. I love it because it is beautiful. I haven't had time to take advantage of that the past few years. That's bullshit. I have had the time. I've had plenty of time. But rather than use the time to get outdoors or to get my work done I've used it to blot out the world with video games. I drown out the responsible voices in my head with audiobooks and video games and TV. The last four years have been really, really bad, and I wonder how much of that badness I've caused by my failure to stand up and smash the things I've been using to shut out the world.
I spend a lot of time at a coffee shop a few towns over. I always order Turkish coffee, which I recently discovered they all hate to make. They've been nice to me anyway, so now I order tea. Anyway, the staff and the regulars all called me the Turkish guy before we got to know each other. Now they know me as Charlie Turkish, which I think is kind of funny. One of the other regulars gave me a kefir grain today, and I'm wicked excited about the possibilities.
sockpuppet:
I like "Charlie Turkish". That's cool