asael

I have been a horrible blogger. The real world had her way with me for a while. Not all good. Too much time spent drinking nights away with friends and spending more money than I had to spend. In the end, it was a mildly painful wake-up call to me. I realized once again that I day spent in quiet contemplation is less of a waste than a night spent drinking and the resulting day of hang-over recovery. It would seem that regardless of how valiantly I try, alcoholism is a goal unattainable. The Inter-Holiday period from the end of November through the festivities of the New Year was a rather busy period at work, which I found to be a very unwelcome addition to a period of time that I find to be naturally stressful.

I have now reduced my consumption of alcohol to a financially, socially, and spiritually acceptable level. I have restricted my heavy consumption of alcohol to Friday nights. Heavy consumption is a very relative term, as I haven't had a hang-over since the weekend prior to the New Year. I have been sporting a good buzz at times, but I have done well to avoid outright intoxication. I just can't deal with that. I'm working on grounding myself emotionally and spiritually as well, which all together has produced a far happier Asael than has greeted me in the mirror for a few months. I need to engage in more works, meditation and Yoga are the next steps to reestablishing a healthy balance.

Much has happened in the past few months, a few failed to start romances, and one that I couldn't get away with fast enough, especially after an early morning phone call on New Year's Day. I can now say that I have been begged for sex. Today I'm flattered, but that was a bit much for me. She just wasn't the type of girl that I saw anything with. I don't wish for anyone who might stumble upon this to think that I'm an unusually nice guy, if I liked the girl more, I probably would have taken her into my bed. In this case, I wasn't feeling a connection. There were alarms in just about everything that came up in our two dates. We share some of the same social network, so I wanted to play things nice, I wasn't going to drop her as casually I might drop someone else that generated such negative energy. In the end, her begging and her challenges to my manhood made matters simple for me. People have expressed hesitancy in dealing with her now. Poor thing.

That was probably the most excitement that I experienced. There were a lot of stressors, but nothing truly worthy of mention. Well, here's hoping that I manage to become more active in the community here and remain active.