I'm feeling better. In fact, I'm feeling well enough that I've been working out this week. Of course, I am out of shape, and my workouts have been reminders of such. Still, it felt good to jog in the afternoon sun and get all sweaty and stinky. I enjoyed the time to myself and the thoughts that ran through my head -- except for the thoughts of "ow, my knees hurt." I shouldn't be jogging on account of my knees being a little on the wrong side of fucked, but I truly used to enjoy it, and I have found that I still do, and will enjoy it more when I shed a few pounds and get into the habit. I enjoyed it so much that I'm thinking of getting up at 4am every morning to go for a jog, and then jogging again in the evening.
It seems that I am single once again. It was rather sudden too. It was the second time that Amanda and I tried to give it a go. The first time I was a fuck-up caught up in my own self-pity and apathy. I'm a much better man that that now, and Amanda agrees, but she says the devotes excessive amounts of energy to worrying about the pitiful apathetic side of me ascending once more. It won't, that developed from the manner in which I had to leave college (money running out) and having to leave my best friends behind. It took me a considerable while to bother with other people that wanted to have a role in my life. I've gotten over that and my life is much better. I respect Amanda's decision, although it is a difficult one for me handle.
I am looking at ways to finish my bachelor's degree. This is something that I really need to get under my belt. It opens so many more doors than are opened to me at the moment. I really want to finished the BA and then apply for law schools. In the meantime, who knows what will happen?
I have come a long way though. As much as this break-up pains me emotionally, I can still see light. It's not as bright as it was a couple of weeks ago when the relationship seemed to be going well, but there is a light. There are so many beautiful things in this world that I still have available to me. Hopefully next week I can go hiking with a friend from work.
Speaking of work, I won't be doing much of it this week. I'm travelling to somewhere in New Jersey for a business meeting. I'll be receiving certification so that I might act as a trainer for the agency. I think I'll get a slight raise to go with this as well. I hope it might open a few other doors for me as well with the agency.
That's the update. Still working on a new photo to put up.
It seems that I am single once again. It was rather sudden too. It was the second time that Amanda and I tried to give it a go. The first time I was a fuck-up caught up in my own self-pity and apathy. I'm a much better man that that now, and Amanda agrees, but she says the devotes excessive amounts of energy to worrying about the pitiful apathetic side of me ascending once more. It won't, that developed from the manner in which I had to leave college (money running out) and having to leave my best friends behind. It took me a considerable while to bother with other people that wanted to have a role in my life. I've gotten over that and my life is much better. I respect Amanda's decision, although it is a difficult one for me handle.
I am looking at ways to finish my bachelor's degree. This is something that I really need to get under my belt. It opens so many more doors than are opened to me at the moment. I really want to finished the BA and then apply for law schools. In the meantime, who knows what will happen?
I have come a long way though. As much as this break-up pains me emotionally, I can still see light. It's not as bright as it was a couple of weeks ago when the relationship seemed to be going well, but there is a light. There are so many beautiful things in this world that I still have available to me. Hopefully next week I can go hiking with a friend from work.
Speaking of work, I won't be doing much of it this week. I'm travelling to somewhere in New Jersey for a business meeting. I'll be receiving certification so that I might act as a trainer for the agency. I think I'll get a slight raise to go with this as well. I hope it might open a few other doors for me as well with the agency.
That's the update. Still working on a new photo to put up.