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REFRESH YOURSELF

I come up with this because of something that happened
to me today, and I felt like writing because I cannot sleep...

I was a bit immature, stupid and I didn't think before I spoke (what a stupid thing...)
I realised through someone I love that I had something pending to resolve with
one member of my family and that same person made felt disappointed about me,
because I showed something I am not and that really made him upset, he said he needed to think...

It was wrong, and I know that, people should be civilised inside their family even though something in the past made you and that person have fights, what's the point of fighting, did I learned anything? No...I didn't, no one ever did. I wasn't going to be the first!

I also realised through his words, I needed to change myself towards this person of my family... it opened my eyes, because when someone you love and care, tells you what's wrong with you, you will listen to that person in more detail because it makes more sense and you can finally see things in another point of view... the viewer view, even when that person doesn't know anything about the past between those two exact persons, but he knows what's happening in the present and that's what matters at the moment to be fair.

Things happen for a reason, and I thing this happened , to make me realise that I need to change and make the anger I still feel for this person coz of something he done in the past...
I shouldn't regret anything, but I regret today's event... I was stupid , I didn't think and I acted like it was a big deal... and I just did "shit"

everyone makes mistakes, I do , a lot of them. but I am in a constant evolution , physically, emotionally and that is what it makes me want to change this ...I need to change this for good and repair what is damaged ...with this person of my family and with the person I love...

he is so right that it hurts.
but it hurts more to think if i don't fix this with this person, I will always have problems
and I really want to thank my Boyfriend to open my eyes and make me realise this can't happen again...or I will be "crazy" forever...with problems...like some people I met in the past and I don't want that.

I am positive I can do it, now that I know the problem.
it's always good to have someone to open our eyes.

now... I just hope that I can do something to show that person I really care, that
I am not gonna be like that forever towards that person...because it's stupid, very stupid.

I am tired of fights, tired of war and tired of silly things.
so I put a stop in this and say ! I am going to change... I will!!!