Bit of a shit journal entry for you all here:
It's my birthday next week. And for some really weird reason i'm filled with this weird sense of...well i don't know. It's weird. It doesn't feel good. Nothing really feels good at the moment, i have this strange feeling all the time.
I don't feel like doing anything for my birthday...everyone's being really fucking miserable about it actually. "Well i GUESS I could book it off work, but i don't know...do we have to do something?" My so called friends are continually screwing me over, and as for my boyfriend, he's too busy being asleep or playing video games to even listen to me. Guess it's just one of those weeks...months...whatever. I feel everybody treating me differently too, which is strange. Nothing about me has changed, yet i'm being treated as if it has.
I don't really know what to do at the moment. When I go into college it's like i pass the day in a blur. Nothing really means anything to me, cuz if I'd had a choice, I wouldn't be there. I should be in University allready for fucks sake, doing something that interests me. So every day I find myself even more pissed off with my tutor, seeing as he's the reason i'm in college for a third year. And doing all of his work. I also hate the way that I get treated in that place because I'm a girl. Every single one of the complete twats on that course thinks they can do everything better than me, and they don't seem to realise that i've allready done it all, and got 3 As in that course...and they're failing....
I feel like i need a fucking penis to get any respect in this world.
I also just got asked to sing in a band. Which is bad ass cuz I love the guys in it, and I've not sung with a band for ages...but for some really bizarre reason that I can't quite put my finger on, im really dreading playing with them... I'm really wondering why, because i've played with two of them before, and THEY asked ME. So.
Ugh I don't know whats up. We'll see ey?
Fucksocks.
It's my birthday next week. And for some really weird reason i'm filled with this weird sense of...well i don't know. It's weird. It doesn't feel good. Nothing really feels good at the moment, i have this strange feeling all the time.
I don't feel like doing anything for my birthday...everyone's being really fucking miserable about it actually. "Well i GUESS I could book it off work, but i don't know...do we have to do something?" My so called friends are continually screwing me over, and as for my boyfriend, he's too busy being asleep or playing video games to even listen to me. Guess it's just one of those weeks...months...whatever. I feel everybody treating me differently too, which is strange. Nothing about me has changed, yet i'm being treated as if it has.
I don't really know what to do at the moment. When I go into college it's like i pass the day in a blur. Nothing really means anything to me, cuz if I'd had a choice, I wouldn't be there. I should be in University allready for fucks sake, doing something that interests me. So every day I find myself even more pissed off with my tutor, seeing as he's the reason i'm in college for a third year. And doing all of his work. I also hate the way that I get treated in that place because I'm a girl. Every single one of the complete twats on that course thinks they can do everything better than me, and they don't seem to realise that i've allready done it all, and got 3 As in that course...and they're failing....
I feel like i need a fucking penis to get any respect in this world.
I also just got asked to sing in a band. Which is bad ass cuz I love the guys in it, and I've not sung with a band for ages...but for some really bizarre reason that I can't quite put my finger on, im really dreading playing with them... I'm really wondering why, because i've played with two of them before, and THEY asked ME. So.
Ugh I don't know whats up. We'll see ey?
Fucksocks.
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my friends were really shit with my 21st a few months ago hardly anyone made the effort at all. i was so pissed off.
i'm sure you'll have fun though!
go sing in a band u lucky thing! i really want to get a band going again some time soon
take care of yourself