artpie

another beautiful day in LaLa land... don't have to be at work till 3pm so I get to sit around all morning & drink coffee & visit friends here in SGville... the fem du chaos in my life decided to give me a call yesterday... saw it was her & let it go to voice mail (controlling my mental environment)... I really love this chic but man, she can be a complete looney sometimes (this I know cause I am one too)... maybe that's part of what I find so attractive about her, our craziness matchess up... she's an incredible, beautiful, righteous babe of an artist who's creative voice truely comes from her heart & I find that super fucking hot... she's also a dear friend who I can trust & who trusts me... I suppose I should be satisfied with this amazing sensually platonic relationship that we've had for the last few years... we both seem to keep dancing around the sexual potential of it though... sometimes I'm just a stupid boy... I've chosen not to call her back for a few days and let this thing stew for a couple days, maybe till I get back from San Fran this weekend... part of me wants her to start missing me (that would be the insecure, dark boy part of me), part of me wants to just clear my head so that I can come back to her with a compassionate heart (that would be the loving & light filled me)... if any of my friends here are interested... this is her... down at the bottom (man, that makes me a bit nervous... don't abuse this revelation friends)
& on the I'm going & yer not tip...one day closer to David Bowie!!! (I'd take you all if I could)
'kay... here's a little brain mumble for the day

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Your fear
has exposed
my own
and I want us
to comfort each other.
I want to prove,
to you,
that love is not leashed by betrayal.
I want you
to show me
that alone is not the air I will breathe
until I breathe no more.
I want to awake
to the weight of you on my skin
like sun light.
I want you
to fall into my eyes
and find the gift,
the loss
that hides beneath my frustration.
What do you want?
essexgirl