I have felt so empty and cold lately. It seems that I just switch up from being frustrated to depressed. I do my best to keep a good face on, but in all reality, I'm fucking miserable a majority of the time.
I work, I hang out with a couple of people and then I do it again.
I seek attention from people to distract myself from how alone I feel.
For the last week I have thought hard about the things that I really care about in this world, and I have come to realize that the list I once had, has dwindled. Its hard to continue to care about things or people when there is nothing in return. Without many cares, its hard to be motivated.
I feel like I'm sinking again and I'm not really sure what will pull me up.
I never actually talk to anyone. And no one really talks to me.
Bullshit small talk and two line facebook conversations, don't count.
I sometimes talk about stories to people involving some of my "best friends" and I refer to them as such, but lately I've been questioning my reference. My list of "best friends" was so extensive. But as time goes by, the relationships that I thought I once had feel like they're fading into mere acquaintances.
Where are you? Living your life, as you should. There is no fault at hand. Only pain on my side. I don't even know you anymore. And I am left feeling alone and stranded. Going nowhere.
I am told on occasion by various people that I am cared about. But, it doesn't really sink in. I don't feel it. I don't really feel anything positive anymore. I try to be open to the concept, but it has gotten pretty hard when I am just constantly met with walls.
I consistently change my life, usually fairly drastically, in hopes that it will open me up to happiness. But, so far, nothing. And, I've been concentrating hard this time to figure out my next change, but every path I choose in my head has an empty feeling. For some reason I cannot foresee happiness at all in my future. And when you've reached that conclusion, whats the point of any of it?
I don't know what I'm doing or why I'm bothering.
I work, I hang out with a couple of people and then I do it again.
I seek attention from people to distract myself from how alone I feel.
For the last week I have thought hard about the things that I really care about in this world, and I have come to realize that the list I once had, has dwindled. Its hard to continue to care about things or people when there is nothing in return. Without many cares, its hard to be motivated.
I feel like I'm sinking again and I'm not really sure what will pull me up.
I never actually talk to anyone. And no one really talks to me.
Bullshit small talk and two line facebook conversations, don't count.
I sometimes talk about stories to people involving some of my "best friends" and I refer to them as such, but lately I've been questioning my reference. My list of "best friends" was so extensive. But as time goes by, the relationships that I thought I once had feel like they're fading into mere acquaintances.
Where are you? Living your life, as you should. There is no fault at hand. Only pain on my side. I don't even know you anymore. And I am left feeling alone and stranded. Going nowhere.
I am told on occasion by various people that I am cared about. But, it doesn't really sink in. I don't feel it. I don't really feel anything positive anymore. I try to be open to the concept, but it has gotten pretty hard when I am just constantly met with walls.
I consistently change my life, usually fairly drastically, in hopes that it will open me up to happiness. But, so far, nothing. And, I've been concentrating hard this time to figure out my next change, but every path I choose in my head has an empty feeling. For some reason I cannot foresee happiness at all in my future. And when you've reached that conclusion, whats the point of any of it?
I don't know what I'm doing or why I'm bothering.
Just keep trying, I commend you for all the changes you go through to be happy. You might stumble onto it eventually. I have a friends list that is slowly dying down
I don't know if that helps at all. I hate to see other people feel like this. My friend list in real life is pret-ty skimpy these days. I feel like I'm having to start over.
Oh yes, and anything or anyone who can make you laugh= golden.
(You may not want take advice from a ninja on a bike but what the hell.)