artistictragedy

I can never get what I want.

still don't have my car back.

and I was rejected by a boy who says he is just as into me as I am him, but the circumstances do not allow for things to go anywhere.
it sucks.
I want to find a loophole.
I'm not used to rejection...

I'm exhausted.
I don't want to work anymore.
Why doesn't someone just pay me for being awesome??

I've lost my direction and ambition again,
I'm floating in this middle plain of shit and I don't know where to go from here.
I'm sure at some point I'll follow some path, and then wind up changing directions again...

I'm back to one of my old habits.
and, I've been aching to get back into another one..
I'm just not sure I can afford to.
neither are terribly healthy for the mind or body.
oh well.

I feel like I am one of those people that happiness wasn't made for.
and I don't wanna live forever.
so when does this life become worth it?
and when do I know when to be done?

I'm very lonely...
regardless of where I am.
it is a very displeasing feeling.
I don't know where home is and I feel like that contributes to a lot.



and that is my random spurts of floating thoughts.

hope you're all well.