artiekgb

I came to a sad realization today, and that is that I don't trust this
girl.
I don't trust her as far as I can throw her.
(Pardon my line breaks, I've been drinking.)
I was off that wagon for a while.
I was pretty much done with being invested, because it's nothing but no
good.
I liked her though.
God damn me, I still do.
I had this firm oppinion that it's really not worth it.
That got me by.
That got me into trouble, but it got me along.
Then there was this girl that sat down next to me.
She said the right things.
Calculated or in ernest, I am now unsure of,
But they sounded so sweet.
And then I saw her every night for two solid weeks, and we both said the
same things.
"I'm going away soon, but I like you next to me."
So that's when I hopped on the teter toter.
She's not interested but she calls me.
She's distant but she's pretty.
And she says the right things.
Calculated or in ernest, I am now unsure of,
But they sound so sweet.
Then it's every other day,
Then it's some days,
Then who knows when,
There is never any exposition, but I am spilling everything.
It's just her friend and an old friend and oh, her friend.
So I try to be reserved.
I'm not into being that guy who meets you
I am not into being that guy who you are nice to, and then he thinks
you're his girl.
But then she kisses so sweet and she whispers so sweetly and I'm turned
around again.
But then it's a friend, an old friend, oh her friend.
The whole time I am wondering,
If I like her so much and I long for her so,
Why can't I trust that she's believable.
There are still absent phone calls.
There are still conversations that I only hear half of, but they make me
uncomfortable.
The days and days of "I don't think I'll come out" say one thing,
But the kisses say another.
Say the things that keep me around.
The words and looks are so sweet,
Calculated, or in ernest, I am unsure of,
But they sound so sweet.
And they've definitely kept me.
But I've come to a sad realization tonight,
And that is, I can't trust her as far as I can thrwow her.
Arthur