Uneasiness is a part of my holidays. I am a little freaked out about so much close contact with my immediate family. They are completely unaware of my state of mind right now. My only joys in life are the objects of my desire, being women and hope of being the object of someones love. Sorry to be so down but a couple months ago my heart, as dark as it may be, was smashed into peices with a single phone call. Physical pain is holds no threat to my well being but heartache can sink the best of us. I'm sure I am not alone in feeling how I do. Any thoughts are welcome. If only I could embrace emotional pain and gain joy from it what a glowing person I would become. Nolite te bastardes carborundorum!
Bye Friends
Bye Friends
alohra:
Sad. A couple of months seems as though it should be sufficient time to pull yourself together. No matter what happened, the world has apparently kept on turning and the sun still rises in the east and sets in the west. This may sound lame, or insensitive, but you should embrace the time that you have with your family as a way to bring you out of your gloom. There have been times when I've been in a bad place emotionally and my family has helped me just by being there and keeping me grounded, without even knowing how bad things were for me. I suppose it's just comforting to me to know that there's something/someone who's constant in my life. You seem as though you know what you SHOULD be doing, yet you're reluctant to actually do it. Hey, knock it off. Just do it.
artguypdx:
You're right. We don't always want what is truly best for us. As kids, most of us didn't want our hair brushed or to take medicine when sick. I will go eat turkey and maybe tell my brother whats going on in here. Your input is only reinforcing what is true. I hope you have a great thanksgiving and hope to see you at one of the events sometime. Off the subject I can only smile when I see your beautiful smile on my friends board. Sleep well.