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Life is good. Everything has begun to settle down and fall into place.
I had to go to Americorps/Red Cross and quit. I told them I just could'nt spread myself that thin with the health of my father on the line. The next day they called me and asked if I'd be interested in a part-time position if they CREATED the parameters for it on the program. Usually that kind of stuff is a no go...but they are soooooo interested in my work abilities and what I can bring to the team they CREATED it. (I love it when people blow smoke up your ass) I was like hell yeah. So I did'nt have to give up school....I can do what I want to with the Red Cross...and I have enough time to help try to get my father in a better place both professionally and physically. The only thing is...I don't get paid at the red cross now...the stipend is gone...and I only get the educational award...but I was never really doing for the money anyway.
The last month has been the most insane I've had in years...I don't think I've ever been so stressed...so confused...and had so much going at once. I think I'll try to juggle a little less in the near future. Whoa.
It's nice to be able to get a little perspective on it now. And though I wished I had'nt been so heavy handed with everything...I think I know why I was...and what's better...how to not do it again.
Lessons...life is all about the lessons. It's applying them that kills ya.
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Life is good. Everything has begun to settle down and fall into place.
I had to go to Americorps/Red Cross and quit. I told them I just could'nt spread myself that thin with the health of my father on the line. The next day they called me and asked if I'd be interested in a part-time position if they CREATED the parameters for it on the program. Usually that kind of stuff is a no go...but they are soooooo interested in my work abilities and what I can bring to the team they CREATED it. (I love it when people blow smoke up your ass) I was like hell yeah. So I did'nt have to give up school....I can do what I want to with the Red Cross...and I have enough time to help try to get my father in a better place both professionally and physically. The only thing is...I don't get paid at the red cross now...the stipend is gone...and I only get the educational award...but I was never really doing for the money anyway.
The last month has been the most insane I've had in years...I don't think I've ever been so stressed...so confused...and had so much going at once. I think I'll try to juggle a little less in the near future. Whoa.
It's nice to be able to get a little perspective on it now. And though I wished I had'nt been so heavy handed with everything...I think I know why I was...and what's better...how to not do it again.
Lessons...life is all about the lessons. It's applying them that kills ya.
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How did you get involved with the Red Cross? It seems like a rewarding place to be.
Also, how long did you live in the Bay Area? I was born there and spent a few years of my childhood there. I am supposed to go up for Halloween.
As for the love thing, be patient. It will happen when it is supposed to. Don't you hate when people tell you that. I am in the same boat as you and for people to say that to me is a bit irritating. I mean you know that they mean well, but it still doesn't take away that sting you feel when you want to hold someone or when you want to spend hours laying in bed doing nothing but hearing each other breathe.
Even though I have become really pessimistic about this whole love thing, there is a part of me that will never stop being the hopeless romantic. That small part keeps me from becoming a nun.