Haven't updated in a while, so i guess i will.
Filling out medical and enhanced disclosure forms is proving a task, and college wont pay the 36 fee for it either, not sure whether benefits will cover. The dumb bint who i signed on with last week obviously didn't read what i'd wrote, you know, the offered a jobl part, seriously, come on, i don't trust her word when she said they don't cover things like that, if she didn't even bother to read my job log book, going to have to get an appointment to see someone.
Was going to start counselling again, but then cancelled. The counsellor i used to have doesn't work there anymore, and there's no counsellors now that specialise in self harm, so i wont bother until i can find someone. Writing down in my medical questionnaire thing that i'm a recovering self harmer was a bit daunting though.
Halloween outfit is failing so far. Got my costume today, and all i can say is, one size my arse. I'm a 12-14, she claimed that this will fit 10-16, and had the measurements in which this was covered. I'm within those measurements, and yet it wouldn't fit over my hips. Messaged her asking if she's sent the wrong size, i'm rather pissed off, i know how big my hips are, and they're NOT bigger than a 16, they're a small 14, bloody size 12 wont fit, but 14 is too big. The wonders of having a womanly figure eh?
In case i didn't mention, and anyone bothered to read about my step mum's dad, he died from lymphoma. He was too dehydrated and they couldn't start chemo until he was, he was too far gone to get his body fit enough for chemo. I'm annoyed at the fact that the doctors brushed off anything when he went to see them about feeling unwell. The funeral was last week, and it sucked, my step brother and sisters first funeral, and sinead just broke me down, at the crematorium, when they went up to the coffin to say bye, she just wailed 'Good bye grandad' just, tore me to pieces. They had a pipe band marching out of the close where they live and out of the church, it was land of our fathers, and it made me cry, because it was so beautiful, and sad. I'm still sad when i concentrate on some songs i listen to, and i want to cry. He isn't in pain anymore, that's what i keep telling myself, and he would've enjoyed the send off we gave him, and the piss up that followed.
This has gotten my into thinking about songs i'd like played at my funeral. I thought Foo Fighters- The Best of you, was a good one, Laurenna McKennit- Mummer's Dance is another.
Been geeky lately and started raiding Kara, cleared it and i got myself a nice necklace. Failed at Gruul tonight though, not enough dps i think.
Oh, don't know when i'll be sending in my next set, people are too busy, sucks cock being at the bottom of a long list.
Filling out medical and enhanced disclosure forms is proving a task, and college wont pay the 36 fee for it either, not sure whether benefits will cover. The dumb bint who i signed on with last week obviously didn't read what i'd wrote, you know, the offered a jobl part, seriously, come on, i don't trust her word when she said they don't cover things like that, if she didn't even bother to read my job log book, going to have to get an appointment to see someone.
Was going to start counselling again, but then cancelled. The counsellor i used to have doesn't work there anymore, and there's no counsellors now that specialise in self harm, so i wont bother until i can find someone. Writing down in my medical questionnaire thing that i'm a recovering self harmer was a bit daunting though.
Halloween outfit is failing so far. Got my costume today, and all i can say is, one size my arse. I'm a 12-14, she claimed that this will fit 10-16, and had the measurements in which this was covered. I'm within those measurements, and yet it wouldn't fit over my hips. Messaged her asking if she's sent the wrong size, i'm rather pissed off, i know how big my hips are, and they're NOT bigger than a 16, they're a small 14, bloody size 12 wont fit, but 14 is too big. The wonders of having a womanly figure eh?
In case i didn't mention, and anyone bothered to read about my step mum's dad, he died from lymphoma. He was too dehydrated and they couldn't start chemo until he was, he was too far gone to get his body fit enough for chemo. I'm annoyed at the fact that the doctors brushed off anything when he went to see them about feeling unwell. The funeral was last week, and it sucked, my step brother and sisters first funeral, and sinead just broke me down, at the crematorium, when they went up to the coffin to say bye, she just wailed 'Good bye grandad' just, tore me to pieces. They had a pipe band marching out of the close where they live and out of the church, it was land of our fathers, and it made me cry, because it was so beautiful, and sad. I'm still sad when i concentrate on some songs i listen to, and i want to cry. He isn't in pain anymore, that's what i keep telling myself, and he would've enjoyed the send off we gave him, and the piss up that followed.
This has gotten my into thinking about songs i'd like played at my funeral. I thought Foo Fighters- The Best of you, was a good one, Laurenna McKennit- Mummer's Dance is another.
Been geeky lately and started raiding Kara, cleared it and i got myself a nice necklace. Failed at Gruul tonight though, not enough dps i think.
Oh, don't know when i'll be sending in my next set, people are too busy, sucks cock being at the bottom of a long list.
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Aye sickness sucks. Treated myself to a pizza from my local takeaway for tea, its reacted with the latest in my line of fun weird symptoms (chronic stomach pain when hungry) to now create new symptoms (chronic stomach pain when full). Joy.
yay halloween, I almost forgot about it. its not such a big deal in germany but
I hope its going to be sometime.