arinnikole

So, I think I finally might get some relief to my anxiety issues. I went to the doctors today and she finally decided to put me on some Klonopins. Thank goodness. A while back when I came in with a bunch of symptoms, she was quick to put me on anti-depressants, but over time I didn't feel much better. I haven't been sad or depressed after taking them, but I still felt anxious and kept getting panic attacks. It's gotten to the point where I can't pay attention in class for long periods of time and when I get confused I freak out and just give up. Not to mention I can't seem to sit down long enough to study for tests. So I'm hoping these meds will actually work for me and that I can bring my grades up to A's because I know if I would actually put time into studying I could get near perfect on all of my tests. It's like when I sit down to study, I can go over my notes and read them, but all I see is words and can't seem to fous or concentrate enough to understand what I am readng and get destracted so easily. I was never like that in high school, I always got all A's an B's without even trying.

On another note, I'm going to be home alone tonight for the first time in three years. Sage is staying at my Dad's house because he is watching her tomorrow while I'm in school and he has things to do early in the morning and it will be more conveinant for him just to keep her overnight. She stays with my Dad overnight every Saturday, but I always go out those nights and either have my friends stay over with me or stay overnight at his house. So I guarantee I'll end up going to his house to sleep tonight just so I have someone to sleep with in bed. I REALLLLLLY hate sleeping alone. For the past month Sage has been going to sleep in my bed with me and if she does fall asleep in her bed, she wakes up in the middle of the night and crawls into my bed. And so I got used to her always being in bed cuddling with me. But then again, maybe having my bed/house all to myself might actually help me sleep better. Who knows.

As for today's weather, I LOVED it. Too bad it's supposed to start snowing again by the middle/end of this week. We get a gorgeous day followed by probably a ton of bad ones.

Hopefully I do good on my tests tomorrow because I haven't been doing as good as I was or as I would want to be doing. I wanted all A's, not B's. I'm a very smart girl and if only I could concentrate and not stress the fuck out then I know I could have some good ass grades.