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Erm... apparently someone bought me three free months??

Thanks to whoever did this for me. Unfortunately I doubt I will have much free time to enjoy this, as I am extremely busy being an overachieving college girl. Regardless, I will try and find some time for boobies.

...end transmission...
handsolo:
twas i!
no it wasnt.. but maybe? just maybe.. it should have been?
confused
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My Livejournal post, cause I'm sad and lazy.

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Remember this weekend, how I was so excited about it?

Yeah, silly me.



I didn't get to go to Kristen's wedding because my ride was about 2 hours late. I'm sure she will understand.

Mark and Will came to pick me up, and we went to Radford. Apparently this weekend was Highlander Days,...
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shinmegamitensei:
That sux your having dude trouble lady. I could see why a dude would fall for ya pretty hard based solely on what I've read about you on here and your pics. Just remember honesty is always best even if it sux major. Hit me up sometime if you'd like to talk.
morgan:
Thank you so much, and I'm sorry for the losses you had to go through as well.

My mom comforted me by telling me that at least God knows that we did our best and loved and cared for one of his creations. I'm not religious,but it makes me feel better anyway.
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shadowslightness:
I'm sure many peoples' self esteem comes from various bottles of different severity.

The pictures look great though. You're so pretty. smile
misskoneko:
Awww thank youkiss And i love those hats! I WANT ONE!
*hugs*
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Tea Suicide is gone....
*cries*

I'm really doubting whether I still want to be a SG or not. SO many of the SGs I love and respect are leaving the site or are just unhappy with the way the site is being run.

It's odd to have such strong doubts about something I was so sure I wanted.
misskoneko:
I know just how you feel.
shadowslightness:
Take the words and advice of those before you into consideration, but still decide for yourself. If it's truly what you want in the end, then awesome.

But it is hard to ignore the backlash from a lot of the models... confused
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I woke up again reaching for him , only to find empty bed.

Will these feelings ever relent? I feel as if I am in mourning.

I want to cry, but it hurts far too much.

I long to see him again, to touch him, to cry into him.

How can I continue to love someone so much when he has expressed that he does...
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shadowslightness:
Tears will spill from your face to the ground and something will stem from the salt, its roots reaching deep into the earth and deeper within your heart. A little souvenir to remember the time and the pain. It continues to fill up your guts, fears, and love until you can learn to outgrow it. Only then will its weight lessen, size shrink, grasp on you loosen.

Learning to love without someone is never easy. Give it time. You will move on and learn from it, I assure you.
misskoneko:
Its a great feeling, isnt it?
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Listening to Crazy-loud DJ Irene and reading page after page of Questionable Content is certainly a way to keep a girl in high spirits.

I talked to Travis again tonight. I love talking to him, but it's really hard. He is being really nice to me though.
It's just really hard. I'm OK as long as I don't think. Everything reminds me of him.

I...
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shadowslightness:
Thank you so much for the comfort. It's been a weird time. I wish I wouldn't have to worry about other judging my actions, but it's what people do. I wish they wouldn't, especially when they don't know the circumstances. It's very frustrating.

It really sucks not having a place to go or person to turn to that's totally safe.

You're a sweet girl, thank you so much for writing.
shadowslightness:
I'm glad that what I wrote meant something to you. What most of us don't realize is that we are much stronger than we give ourselves credit for.

The other thing most of us don't realize is that being open and honest with our emotions is a sign of strength, not weakness.

You will be okay, sweetheart. I am positive of it.
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I felt like I should post a somewhat postive journal.

I'm going to make an appointment with the Psych Clinic here on campus to get evaluated. It's time I start looking to fix my problems, instead of just dwelling on them. I'm tired of my mental illness controlling my life.

Also, my ex suggested I update my audio drivers, because the sound was all crackly....
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misskoneko:
Hismile Thanks for the request - you're only 10 days older than me!!
Additions to the library of your future child/children..thats the most <insert warm fuzzy word that has escaped my mind> thing I've ever readsmile
tadzi:
it can happen. my ex-fiance and i are still close friends. at this point its actually been longer that weve been "just friends" than the amount of time we were dating. shes the only ex i still talk to, but frankly, shes the only one who was worth keeping around.
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I posted this as a private entry on LJ. I feel more comfortable letting people read it here. Probably because I don't know most (if any) or you personally.

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So... as of about 2am last night, I am single.

Travis's doesn't love me and wants to be single.

I have been crying for nearly 12 hours.

I didn't go to class...
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shadowslightness:
Aww, sweetheart... frown

Trusting people is hard enough to do, and it only gets harder once you feel betrayed. I think most people lose a lot of trust and never want to open up again. I hope you don't do this though.

For every guy that doesn't get you, there is one that will. And I hope you believe me when I say there is someone who will fit with you, have faith in you, and be there unconditionally.

You won't always be alone. I can pretty much promise you that.

You don't sound whiny, naive, unreasonable...you just sound like you're in a lot of pain. I hope things get better sweetheart. Please, if I can say or do anything...

Feel better pretty girl, and don't give up on people no matter how much it hurts.
shadowslightness:
I totally understand. Getting swept up in the romance of another person is something I thrive on as well. Once it ends though, there's always an empty "what do I do now?" kind of thing. I hope you don't get stuck in that too long like I have before. You will figure it out, sweetheart. It just takes time and hope in the face of adversity.

Men, women, children, dogs...all confusing. Let's just revise the phrase to "Everyone is goddamn confusing." smile
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So I worked on my paper for 5 hours last night. I ended up with 2 pages of utter crap (the paper is supposed to be 5 pages). It's due tuesday, and I'm not sure what I'm going to do about it. I basically worked myself up in to a frenzy of tears, where I was swearing to Travis and Mark that I was going...
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So.. I've pretty much given up on finding an apartment since there are no vacancies anywhere I would like to live, and everytime someone contacts me, they have already found someone by the time I get back to them.

So I have decided to force complacency on myself as far as my living situation is. It could be worse.

But I will resume my search...
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