arguablysane

Is it just this time of year?
Is it the impending dread of the holidays and the inescapable time I have to spend with my less-than-familylike "family"?
What the hell is it that's making me wake up every day for the past week feeling so goddamn exhuasted and run-down?

I'm not sick, as far as I know, and I don't have any signs of migrating in that direction.
Every day I just feel progressively robbed of energy and not restored.
I barely even drink anymore, so what the fuck?
It's blarghtacular.

I'm starting to consider going back to see a headcasebrain quack.
Not something I ever looked forward to again, but I just can't explain this lack of any kind of spark.
I suppose we shall see.

Oh, also, and I doubt this will even be an issue, but please NO ONE bother feeling like they should get me anything for Christmas/Hanukkah whatever. I'm too poor to return the favor and I'll just end up feeling like an asshole. So thanks...

I'm going to go get dressed now and pretend I have anything to do with my day.
Suggestions are welcome.