its amazing how hard mentaly this snow hit me today. ever since march i have had myself convinced that i was gonna be out of here before it came and same as every time here i am lamenting the fact that im fucking worthless. it has pushed out a side of me i thought i could/had put away but sure as shit i show my ugly head and blow up all over or internalize my anger at someone who i know has done nothing wrong. the worst part is i really have no one i can talk to about it, sure plenty of people offer but i end up just transplanting on them in a way they were not wanting nor prepared for.
apriloneil:
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