The reason that I haven't updated since my last time is actually due to the fact that my wireless card inside of my laptop appeared to have died. After formating my harddirve, installing Linux, going back to WIndows XP, I called into Dell customer care. After being on the phone with them for 2 hours, they pronounced my network card dead. Luckily for me, I'm about 2 months out of the warranty period so I wasn't able to get it replaced for free. So...... In preparing for the new card I once again formatted my harddrive and got it so that I could have dual operating systems (Red Hat Linux and Windows XP) and after trying some different things I got my wireless card working again. Obviously Dell support doesn't know too much as I showed them wrong. All in all it worked out for the better, I purged my harddrive so now there's only stuff that I actually want on there, I have dual operating systems on this computer, and I learned TONS about computers and stuff in general including starting computers from scratch, running dual operating systems, partinioning drives, Linux, and a bunch of other junk which will be useful for future knowledge.
Michelle and I broke up yesterday. It seems to actually be true this time because she isnt' calling me and begging to go back out with me, it was kind of a mutual decision I guess, actually it was more her. I have always been a loner, I love just sitting in my room and never leaving my room, and that's what we did most of the time. She wants me to become a social butterfly or something and expects me to go out into the world and be friends with all of her friends and never want to be alone or something. I don't understand why she would want that, and she was just saying not too long ago how she understands how I want to be alone iwth her considering that we only have two days for hanging out a week now. But now, it's suddenly thatI should be spending one or both of those days with her friends for completely unknown reasons. I guess she is getting bored with me and hanging out by ourselves just doesn't cut it for her anymore. It sucks really bad. I'm really sad and lonely and I wish that we could make things work. At least this way I will have more free time to concentrate on school.
I think that I want to be more of a loner too anyway. People suck. I always get fucked when it comes to relationships and especially love. I don't need all this drama and bullshit going on in my life, and I can do without. I mean, look at my brother he REALLY doesn't have any friends. He just spends all day on his computer, why couldn't I do that? I mean, I love computers, I'm majoring in it in college now, and I'm about to get some really heavy duty major hardcore computer stuff from Alienware. Fuck people, computers rock.
Michelle and I broke up yesterday. It seems to actually be true this time because she isnt' calling me and begging to go back out with me, it was kind of a mutual decision I guess, actually it was more her. I have always been a loner, I love just sitting in my room and never leaving my room, and that's what we did most of the time. She wants me to become a social butterfly or something and expects me to go out into the world and be friends with all of her friends and never want to be alone or something. I don't understand why she would want that, and she was just saying not too long ago how she understands how I want to be alone iwth her considering that we only have two days for hanging out a week now. But now, it's suddenly thatI should be spending one or both of those days with her friends for completely unknown reasons. I guess she is getting bored with me and hanging out by ourselves just doesn't cut it for her anymore. It sucks really bad. I'm really sad and lonely and I wish that we could make things work. At least this way I will have more free time to concentrate on school.
I think that I want to be more of a loner too anyway. People suck. I always get fucked when it comes to relationships and especially love. I don't need all this drama and bullshit going on in my life, and I can do without. I mean, look at my brother he REALLY doesn't have any friends. He just spends all day on his computer, why couldn't I do that? I mean, I love computers, I'm majoring in it in college now, and I'm about to get some really heavy duty major hardcore computer stuff from Alienware. Fuck people, computers rock.